So far, now that we have completed our home study, we have had two near placements. One was with an African American baby boy, the other with a Caucasian baby girl. In both cases the child was placed with another family, but in both instances I began to daydream with increasing sobriety and hopeful expectation about what each potential future might look like. It began to dawn on me: THIS. IS. ACTUALLY. GOING. TO. HAPPEN. A host of questions began to rise: How are we going to communicate to this child that they are loved and our very own, that they belong, that they are not here on accident while explaining that they actually have two moms and two dads? How are we going to communicate this with strangers who ask questions at the grocery store? Do we want an open, closed or semi-open adoption? Am I ready for the unique challenges that multi-racial families face? And then there are all the questions that normal parents wrestle with: How am I going to discipline? How am I going to raise them in such a way that they are confident in God’s love and God’s call on their life? How am I going to find the energy and the selflessness to be responsible for the upbringing of another human being? Who is worthy of such a task?

When a child is conceived, the parents usually have nine months to brace themselves for perhaps the biggest transition of life. In our case, we may only have a few months, a few weeks, or even a few days to prepare. It certainly is keeping me on my toes! But I am confident that the Lord knows already which little person He will entrust Kara and I to lovingly raise. And I am confident also that His timing is best. Habakkuk was given revelation about the birthing of the age to come and was told that there was an appointed time. He was told: “though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay” (Habakkuk 2:3). I am taking this advice to heart as I await the birthing of a new age to come into our lives: the age of parenthood! Come Baby Bo-Bo, come! ~Jason

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